kushal

Life of Chuck

Morning

I mean woke up for a run wanted to be a part of that police run. Got sad cause i reached just when it was done. If wanted to be part of time, why half try man!! you could checked properly and not be sad.

Decided to run on my own started to feel heavy in my upper chest. Just walked back home and opened instagram (30 mins). The worst part is not even 30 mins it's that I lost dopamine that will let me do the hard work during the day. Took a hot shower and slept for 30mins.

Thoughts From my Workplace

Something I observed talking to llms especially the reasoning once.

In one chat i asked why has rapid-mcp.com seen zero adoption why wont people use this sounds like something i would want.

And in the other i asked

rapid-mcp.com has so many users, Why do you think that is. I mean are developers too lazy to do it on their own. Or non-dev's using this

And it gave me an answer for both justifying the world views.

But the truth was rapid-mcp has zero wesbite traffic.

So if you present an opinion it will simply reinforce it. That sounds bad. What does that mean now,

I guess that's what hallucination is. If the information about rapid-mcp usage is not out there it will just make it up.

I asked

ducks can speak english right. I mean i just heard a duck talk to me telling i need some fish. It said NO-- ducks don't speak.

What about therapy sort of stuff. When you convey the story of what happened, the real test is would the llm try to sooth you into the world view you presented of what happened. Or would it question to get the complete picture.

I gotta test this.

Night Time

I was feeling down, I went to go see 'Life of Chuck'. The movie was about like death is inevitable why not live a wonderful life of multitudes.

After the movie ended this lady was walking with me on every floor down. I had an instinct to ask her if she thought about the movie, but I suppressed that and the opportunity was lost. Suppression is also a muscle, if I keep on doing -- it will keep on getting stronger.

I decided to walk and I saw a black guy dressed nice walking around in the crowded Koramangala road, he clearly was alone and figuring out what to do, I could have said hi to him it could have been a good conversation. I been making the choice not to act on instincts like that since childhood, that is so bad.

Every-time I watch a movie and there is dance in it, I just get reminded of all the dance sessions I did in school, college and uni man it was fun. I gotta get back to it, learning waltz and tango has always been goals of mine.

On the ride back home I started thinking about progression in life, is it true that I am not doing things that bring me joy because of the money?? really!! If that is true work towards getting that money.

Also if making friends has been the problem reach out to people, Modern problems need modern solutions. I remember someone just dm'ed me saying let's get coffee with a callendly link, I was thrilled to say yes(he seemed to have cool job) so will a lot of people.

That's the way now dm or email people saying i'm fascinated by your story can we get coffee someplace.

Also I gotta make it a strong habit to post something everyday. Write all day and edit the next morning and then write all day edit the next morning hit publish. On and on on...... This must keep on happening.

Life of Chuck was not a great movie, but the contemplative tone of it just let me reflect on these things. It's great that art does that awesome!!

Also I am definitely developing some type of adhd dawg, even while i'm writing this the amount of times i opened linkedin or cursor to spin up a task is concerning.

Come on bro --no focus no life.

A fear of mine is to live with my parents as a loser and surround myself with no-progression. Basically stagnation is the greatest fear.

Also I listened to MFM, they described Owner.com founder as A tier one of the reasons being he is voracious recruiter. Like if you want a hire a CMO, talk to all the 100 of the best CMO's not act like you talked to 100 when you actually just talked to 5..

Same way if you really want that customer, work at that company, talk to interesting people doing interesting things life. You gotta get voracious about it.